Although I'm not as ill as you and Anwen, I get a bit of this myself. I wrote recently on my LJ about a trip to London to see my brother, and Mum and me were walking around on the Underground and OK, we didn't go too far, but I was feeling dizzy and sick and in a lot of pain and had to sit down. And Mum had a go at me and said, "You're always ill, you're never well, do you expect me to be surprised, blah blah blah" and I know she was tired and all, but it hurt. A lot. Because I genuinely was ill and walking around a lot and not having any sleep breaks does that to me, not to mention I didn't have a proper lunch. And then at the office Christmas party last year, one of my colleagues made a crack about me being lazy, and it upset me somewhat as I wonder at times if she really does think like this. I know I've had depression for years and it makes me tired, but before the CFS started, I was working full-time and going clubbing and stuff. I can't do that now. It's pretty fucking obvious there is SOMETHING WRONG. I've never believed people with 'invisible illnesses' are faking it as one of my best friends has ME and I remember just how ill she was and all the shit she had to go through, but having CFS myself has really brought it home to me.
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Date: 2010-03-03 07:45 am (UTC)I know I've had depression for years and it makes me tired, but before the CFS started, I was working full-time and going clubbing and stuff. I can't do that now. It's pretty fucking obvious there is SOMETHING WRONG.
I've never believed people with 'invisible illnesses' are faking it as one of my best friends has ME and I remember just how ill she was and all the shit she had to go through, but having CFS myself has really brought it home to me.